Mothers Silence

Lyrics:

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Momma, where you at? I been callin’, no reply,
Left a hole in my chest, never learned how to cry.
Every boy needs his momma just to teach him to feel,
But you vanished like a ghost, was it fake, was it real?

Six years old, I remember it clear,
Your footsteps faded, but the silence stayed near.
No goodbye, no reason, no note on the table,
Just a boy and his questions, caught in a fable.
Was it me? Was I bad? Was I too much to handle?
Lit a fire in my chest, like a wick on a candle.
Dad said, “We’ll be fine,” and he held down the fort,
But a boy needs his mom, some kind of support.
Trust issues growin’, didn’t know how to love,
Turned cold to the world, only warmth came from drugs.

Momma, where you at? I been callin’, no reply,
Left a hole in my chest, never learned how to cry.
Every boy needs his momma just to teach him to feel,
But you vanished like a ghost, was it fake, was it real?

First love for a boy is the woman who bore him,
But what happens when she dips and just leaves him ignorin’?
You were supposed to be my peace, my place to confide,
But I learned real quick, you can’t run, you can’t hide.
The streets became my teacher, the pain became my guide,
I wore anger like a badge, held the hurt deep inside.
Saw friends with their moms, felt the ache in my chest,
What did I do wrong? Was I failing your test?
The first girl I loved, I pushed her away,
Didn’t know how to trust,because of you didn’t know how to stay.

Momma, where you at? I been callin’, no reply,
Left a hole in my chest, never learned how to cry.
Every boy needs his momma just to teach him to feel,
But you vanished like a ghost, was it fake, was it real?

They say forgiveness is freedom, but I’m chained to your name,
Carrying the weight of a mother-shaped pain.
Could’ve taught me empathy, how to nurture my soul,
Instead, I learned survival in a world that’s cold.
Every fight I got in, every risk I would take,
Was a cry for attention, a scream for the ache.
I don’t hate you, Momma, but I don’t understand,
How you left your own blood, let go of my hand.
Was it fear? Was it selfish? Did you think we’d be fine?
Did you cry when you left, or was I out of your mind?

Momma, where you at? I been callin’, no reply,
Left a hole in my chest, never learned how to cry.
Every boy needs his momma just to teach him to feel,
But you vanished like a ghost, was it fake, was it real?
Dad did his best, but it’s hard to replace,
The comfort of a momma, the love in her face.
I was lost in the dark, steady searchin’ for light,
Could’ve calmed my storm, but you left that night.